How I want to live and love in my life. I want all that I do
and say to come from my heart.
As this is my first blog post ever
( exciting!), I have to rely on the format of blogger before me and in that
tradition, I must have the first entry
be a introduction dictating to all of
you, my faithful readers ( or soon to be
faithful readers), why I am starting this blog and the exciting events in my
life that compel me to share with you,
my fears of starting a blog, and finally my wonderful expectations of the future, all while
establishing a tone and general inclinations
of feelings that I must likely will follow in the future.
I
must begin with my trepidation of starting
this blog to get that content out of the
way as quickly as possible. First of all, I am met with my inadequacies as a
writer. While I have enjoyed writing, It has always been associated with school
and while you who know me, know that I am a nerd to my core and absolutely love
school, writing papers have been my arch nemesis. Only in a writing do my flaws
of stray trains of thought that ultimately turn into a train wreck of spelling
and grammar come out. Time and time again, I become resigned to the fact that I
will receive some fraction of points off my grade due to spelling and grammar
errors. I will try my best to avoid these errors, but I also must be true to
myself. I do not want to sacrifice my
feelings and expressions solely to please other people. But I will apologize
here for any spelling or grammar errors to follow, so you will just have to
deal with it. The second fear with starting a blog, is the personal nature of a
blog. I know that this is one of my appeals as well. Where else is there a
platform in which you can be a creative and personal as you want( without the
clichés and constraints of social media)? But there also is the fear that I do
not know who is reading this right now or your opinion of me . The things that
I share hear will be of a personal nature and therefore may be hard to share,
but will be more valuable in nature because of it.
But my dearest
readers, I have left you in suspense for far too long. I am sure that what you really
want to know, is the before mentioned exciting life events that generally
accompanies the start of a blog. Put simply, I am going to Kenya! Yes, Kenya
Africa. I am traveling from my comfortable life in Bozeman, Montana were I am
going to College, to Africa. I am going with InterVarsity Christian fellowship.
There, I will spend time doing what I absolutely love. I will get the privilege
to serve in clinics and hospitals using the knowledge that I have and the
passion that god has given me to serve as a nursing student. I get so very excited just writing this! I
cannot think of a better way to spend my summer than bringing the love and
healing power of God to others. I know some of you may think that I am
completely crazy. But I know that it is
just what I need and want to do. I feel
a need as many young people do, to get away to travel. I want to know what life
is like a different country and culture and I hope to see my own life through
new eyes. I want to develop my passion and skills for nursing in a way that I can only do in foreign country. And finally, and most importantly of all, I know that this is
following God’s calling in my life. That
this is my way of stepping out in faith and trusting in him. Because if he does
not show up this summer when I am over
there, I know that I will fail and look like a fool. One year ago, I had a small hope that maybe I
would be able to go but highly doubtful that I would be able to. The daunting
task of fundraising to go, coupled with the fear of traveling to Africa and
getting approval to go, seemed to hard a task to accomplish on my own. But God
has been with me through it all. Time and time again I have expected myself to
fail in reaching a deadline, and yet time and time again I have made it. My faith has already grown in preparation of
going, and I know that it will only grow more as I am over there. I want
to humbly share the faith that I have
with my service of nursing. I claim to only have a little of both of both
at this point, but what I have, I want to give, with all of my heart.
So, with that I will start this blog. Expect several more
post in which I expand on why I am going before I leave ( June 1st)
and some post while I am there , as well as my transition back to western
culture on my return ( July 20).
